Weakly(sic!) report

I listen to the friend lifeline music on Youtube. Some inner part of me wants that thing, I don't know exactly what, to finish. The kitten is growing up quickly and brings much joy to my parents. I am glad they smile and laugh. That's a valuable gift I missed for a long time. I pretend to be an adult man, but while alone I read other people's stories on Reddit and Threads trying to get their experience and learn something new. I feel lost because now I don't know what exactly I want unlike in my 15. The interpeter's profession is dead here especially with all this politic stuff. I work at an educational institution and manage to play an expert on things I almost loathe. The advice like finding a hobby, walking out and so on don't actually bring any clarity because they're nothing but a fancy set of bandaids. The core of my dissatisfaction is somewhere withing myself. My first and main quest is to be okay with my own company. No one will come to save me at their own expence. Neither I…