weekly retro #63: there's a lot of depression in this one

"this pussy depressed" - megan thee stallion this week was a rough one, but before i get into it i do want to say i'm feeling a lot better now. i was carrying the post-period lows with bad news, the anxiety of responsibility, and sweat from a heat wave that passed through. there was a point where i hit a vape to set off the air purifier to get circulation in the room without dragging my depressed body 3 yards to press the button like a normal person would. when i'm depressed i feel like this wet bee on the ground. stuck to the floor, wet, in a miserable place, but trying to smile so no one asks if i'm okay. being perceived in these moments makes my skin crawl, and unfortunately i'd been tasked with a couple of events that put me on literal stages. jamie and i did our first ticketed nyc event, which was a very exciting opportunity that i should have been stoked about at the time. the entire day up until we got on stage to start the show i wanted to crawl into the sewer and set up a…