I fear the future

As I'm writing this, I am curled up in my bed, and haven't properly left my bedroom in 3 days. My school finals start Monday and I haven't even begun to study. I have more overdue assignments than I want to think about, and am obviously not doing good mentally either. I didn't post anything yesterday despite saying recently that I wanted to post daily. Things happen, and I am very prone to losing motivation with things that I used to enjoy. I debated if I even wanted to try writing something today. The energy it took to pull out my laptop and make a new post is probably all the energy I'll have until tomorrow. The future is terrifying. Even more so when you both feel completely unprepared for adulthood and cannot plan ahead to save your life. I don't know if I'm going to pass my courses this term. I don't know if I'm going to be able to continue at this school, my grades are the lowest they've ever been and I cannot find the motivation to fix it. I have no backup plan, I lost my…