English is my (default) language

Hello, My native language is Romanian and I could not speak any other language until I was probably 14 years old. However, most of technology, including the internet, was in English, and since most of my friends could speak it to some degree, I wanted to be part of the group. We obviously had English classes in school, but as with any foreign language classes, you study to pass the test and then you forget everything you've learned. I started learning English on my own, up to a point where I decided to force myself to think in it. While imperfect at times, it has sort of become my native language, my default language, my main language. It is the language I think in, I plan things in, I talk to myself in and I dream in. I feel like I am my truest self when I speak English. The issue now is that I have been studying German for probably 15 years and have been living in Germany for 11 years as well. My German is mostly on par with my English, but since I have mostly only used it in…